Today i take it easy.i had a good sex.. yesterday. Feels like i was born again 😁 i fucked to celebrate my freedom.. i am free from fwb relation that was more like an infection for the past year. Arent all relationships like that with time?
I had a mental support from another man who thought that i was too dependent. He had it right. But its like all relationships where u get used to ur partner, everything becomes a safe rutine and u stop taking new path. Then u r stuck cause u think that this specific fucker is ur only savior. Yet u need a support from the outside in order to see ur iwn misery. Interesting is that normally its me supporting others. He , who supported me, might even not seen his involvement as a support, it might be me painting it as a support 😄 all in all it helped and that what matters.
I booked a gynecologist visit for two days ago. I took first available cause i hate to wait. In sweden there is a service that guarantee u next day gynecologist:)) u just need to call 1177. Which i did. I had a list of options to choose from so i took the most easy location, near flashy Östermalm. Rich ppls area, why not 😄
While there standing in front of the reception girl, i was kindly informed that i will meet doctor Sven 🤨 My eyebrows went up: i didnt know that gynecologist i booked was a man! No one informed me during reservation process I tried to object and it was ok to have a female specialist but then i have to rebook and wait some week or so. So i said ok to proceed as planned. I pictured old shabby pervert man to check my vagina. This sucks! I looked at my clothes.. like a pretty doll.. as i was planning to meet someone directly after meeting this old pervo .. i hope i wont lose my sexual appetite after this medical visit🤣
After waiting 5 minutes i heard my name and a young goodlooking blond guy with an intense look met me in the corridor. Is this a gynecologist ? 🙄😳 god, he is so hot in the white robe.. Fuuuuuck meeee 😁 from that moment i felt like all blood circulated on my face only .. i was blushing but thanx to my skin color it wasnt visible .. its like blushing from the inside. This unexpected change of the situation turned into small explosions inside 💣💣💣. What the fuuuckk! Life is a bitch. U r a bitch!
I was trying to be calm , trying to mute giggles. I think it looked like i was behaving properly trying to cover the schock. Sven was observant and asked me if i feel a discomfort..i had to tell him that i didnt feel comfortable to show my vagina.. and he took it respectfully.
I couldnt stop myself from asking. what the fuck u r doing working as a gynecologist? What do u find so thrilling with watching vaginas? 😁 I didnt use exact same formulation but the meaning was very similar 😁 his reply put dot on i. "I am not a gynecologist" What??? It was his first day of internship and he is not a gynecologist but a different doctor.. he is practicing an obligatory two months gynecologist internship. Voala ! His reply made me glad, dont know why. Maybe because i find it odd to have a male gynecologist. Its kind of unnatural to me to have men examining part of the body they would naturally want to fuck.
I thought the explanation was acceptable and he seemed to like me cause he could have refused explaining for example. He asked me again if i am willing to let him examine me. I said ok but on my terms, i want to have underware on. He said fine. So i took off my fluffy skirt and had only a top and beautiful bluish matching panties in nice decor .. i also had heels. So when i approached a famous chair, the chair, i realised that i look like from Mouline Rouge cabaret show in Paris 🤣🤣 it would have looked less sexy without panties than now. Anything would have looked less sexy than now 🤦🏻♀️😁
We both tried to not to look at each other. I sat on the chair and pulled panties aside. He examined whatever he had to and said that he needs to consult with a real gynecologist. He will call for him. HIM? are u joking with me? Second man? Really? He was about to smile but i was not in smiling mood. Is this necessary? I am seating like a pornstar on this fucking chair regretting keeping panties and now i have to show mrs.pussy to two men simultaneously 😳🤦🏻♀️💣
After a minute second doctor entered the room. Not as young but still young. Max 40 but more like 35. So i pulled my panties again..a bit aside and he switched on lamp and had extra pen-lamp and the other doctor had the third lamp .. so two heads were down to look on a little area i allowed them to see. Three heads, three lamps and two fingers - all about pussy. Thats why men shouldn't be a gynecologist for god sake! This looks like a porn movie !
The older doctor started to talk and his speech was at times turning into stuttering 🤣🤣 what an awkward situation here! He was looking deliberately on the floor while talking. I didnt want to look at him but i did cause his stuttering was kind of as if he is blushing. Maybe he wasnt comfortable with stuttering.. or maybe he is not a real gynecologist 🤣🤣 just two dumbass men happen to get internship in this Healthcare institution 🤣
All in all everything went good. I am going back in couple of weeks. They will do some cell checking. I asked for a female doctor for the next time 😁 Sven and i became very friendly and giggled together .. He had really nice smile. Very fuckable look cause he had this determination in his voice mixed with smth else. I cant say what. He told me that outside Stockholm municipality there is no separate gynecology centers, instead normal doctors should be able to examine all patients. This explained why he was having this internship. What a pity that this goodlooking guy is going to work in a little city far from the capital. Lets wish him good luck and i hope i am not to meet him in two weeks 🤭
As soon as i left the building there was a car outside waiting for me. Ride to the hotel and then good amount of time to fuck. I was a bit upspeeded but this man knows how to pull my speed down. There are trixes that brat cant resist to 😁 he was still same as he normally is.. looking deep in the eyes.. passionate.. always prepared.. he knows i like perfumes.. he always has a baby oil cause i like to be oiled .. he had a satisfyer with himself.. he is ready most of the time. Organised... and sex with him is mature sex... he kills my brat with his calmness .. i feel stupid at times..
Calmness or sadness ? I havent made my mind up yet. I think he is sad more than he is calm. He says he is not sad Then maybe he feels guilt. Maybe he has a different woman in his head.. someone he cant get.. its smth mysterious with him.. or maybe he just realises that he lacks speed in his life??!! Sometimes he turns swedish.. to be swedish is when he just nods and agrees. Once i managed to make him angry 🤣 i think ppl should let their emotions come out more often. Its much better than clueless nodding like a preprogrammed machine 🤣 boooriiinng !
I had two orgasms that evening. Second one was stronger. I noticed he was trying to use analsex manual instructions from my blogg written in February 2020 or 2021. Dont remember. Not bad. Since he is not allowed to perform analsex. The reason i am hesitant is not one but several. For example, I dont like amateurs and he didnt strike me as a man who has this kink. He is just curious. Its not a kink for him but smth he wants to experience, in his bucketlist. But i am not his harry potter to swing a magic wand and make his dream come true! It doesnt work like that. It simply not.🤪
I have come to an important conclusion: if i open my vagina to a man i dont want it to be examined. Natural purpose of pussy opened to a man is sex. I dont care about professionalism or doctor codes. We shouldn't put men to go through THIS cause we can never be sure that they wont get excited , get erection , want to fuck. Or that parient wont get excited ?! I did once previously, when i started to get wet, without wanting to get wet. That gynecologist was a very handsome (what the fuck all these handsome guys doing working as gynecologists??) afroamerican guy with NFL shoulders and looking like a bull, tall and strong. Unconsciously i started to get wet and he held his hands in front of his dick to hide erection. We both had a reaction we didnt mean to have. Probably we both wished to fuck but then it wasnt appropriate. All i want to say is that its not easy for both parts.. isnt there a convention against tortures or smth? 🤣
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