I received a voice message from 29 years old guy, i wish i could have copied it here 🤣🤣🤣 message sounded like - are u fucking with me? You dont think that i would possibly believe that first time you had sex you were 27. It sounds fucked up!!
Actually i was 27 years and 10 months old 🙄
I know it sounds fucked up. When i think about it I get an anxiety. All that time was not a life but waste of time. those hours, days, weeks , years of my life lost for what! Religion and tradition? Nevertheless, if i had to live same life again, I still would have lived it the way I did. Here would come naturally a question - why?
On the paper and by law I had a choice, i could have met guys and fucked around.. but that desicion has a high price. Many europeans think that women from our region have choices. We have choice to behave and to dress as we want. Do we? Let us imagine that i fucked guys without being married and was one day exposed, what would have happened then.
1. I will be thrown out from my home. Since there is no help program for youth or women (our region do not support such initiatives), i will be literarily on the street with nothing!
2. Most probably, before i am thrown out, i will be beaten up for bringing shame to the family, it could end up with being killed for some girls. If i would go to a police to report most probably nothing will happen cause no one wants a justice to a "whore". Most probably police will rape and throw me out anyway.
3. I wont be allowed to have contact with mother, sisters, brother, no one. I will no longer exist, i am a ghost.
4. I will be asked to kill myself for the best of the family and some girls most probably do that if no one would give a support. Who would want to support "a whore"?
5. But worst of all is that my "behaviour" would make all family members automathically "whore" which means family will lose its clan. My mother couldnt have survived that stample. To destroy ur own life is one thing, to destroy someone else life is much more heavier
So technically we have a choice but that choice would mean you loose everything. show me one kid, teenager, young woman who is ready to lose its family?! Never meet parents, sisters, never see your home. Is this really a choice? Free world should be very carefull when they express their opinion without knowing the reality! Whoever mention about choices, dont know a shit about life there.
Back to 29 years old guy. He was actually fun to talk to.. childish guys are super duper unfuckable 🤣 they are entertaining though 😁 so he tells me that he loves immigrant girls, especially from iran (??) 😁 he says that he doesnt know why but only immigrant girls like analsex. Hmmm.. this is kind of bullshit boy 💩 😁 there are swedish, blond and blue, that like analsex. It has nothing to do with origin. Maybe he was trying to give me a compliment as i am not swedish but it sounded kind of flat and besides a lie 😁 sweet sweet lies 😁
Back to homeland. Unfortunately there is another reality around analsex in our region. there were girls, not married, that did analsex only. The main reason was bloody virginity. Vagina should be untouched. The humiliating process of virginity check was many girls Nightmare. You go through it if you dont bleed first night. Forget about humiliation! if virginity test comes negative then u r dead if not physically then mentally! It happened that some girls didnt bleed first night while they were virgin. Can anyone understand what did they go through while waiting for checkup? All those poor girls 😥 its enormous pressure and anxiety. Thats why i got angry when heard that in Sweden there were gynekologists, supposingly from our region, cause no european would ever do that, that were performing virginity test on girls. Here, in Europe ! Its a scandal!!!! !!! !!! Not acceptable!!
So how did I survive Up to 27 years? I survived without sex thanx to masturbation 😉 Masturbation is not allowed either, you cant get sextoys for it, cant talk about it either, it doesnt destroy virginity. Girls get other type of anxiety though... i never met any girl in my country who masturbated ( i tried to teach but thats another story), its not a topic anyone talks about! Officially it doesnt exist!
Now about last weekend sex. It was terrible! 😁 He wrote me orders in the morning, like : "u should come in, take shower if u need , be naked and standing in blabla position blabla. Then u message me when u r ready" 🤣
Later he wrote again this idiot question - so what are u going to do? Did u get all instructions? I replied - yes. But he insisted that i repeat it. And i wrote - i will shower, and lie naked on the floor in front of the door so that u can clean your dirty feet on me on ur way to ur bed 😠😁 he replied - now i know that u know what to do. (Oh really, u think u r smart! We will see who is who!)
I dont know how submissivity works this way cause orders to me are like waving a red flag at a bull 🤣 i cant just obey.. no fucking way 🤣 but it also gives something, adrenaline.
When i finally was at his shabby place alone, first i did was not to shower but to dance and have fun 😂😂 Black and Yellow of Wiz Khalifa 🎶🎶. And he is like - we dont have time bla bla bla.. and i sent him a short video klip where i am dancing live at his place, no hurry 🤣🤣 calm down dude😁 then i checked his bedroom and removed some of his preparations - dont fuck with me, man! Then i checked bed 😠 and only after that i had a shower while he was messaging - are u ready? When are u ready? When? 😂😂
Tell me who is in charge now?? 😛
Then i submit ha ha but it took a while cause he got angry as i had giggle moments, was playfull, so he had to use boundages for a short while. I am kind of claustrophobic 🤣🤣 get hysterical 😁 then we had a good fuck but none of us could cum. He had a problem 🤭 he was so horny that he had to keep his dick outside in order not to cum first. And i was also horny and every time i was on my way to cum he pulled out. After three times i got really angry!!! What the fuck dude! And he tried to use vibrator - fuck u! No mechanical shit, i wanna real stuff! And he is like - i cant hold myself if i dont pull bla-bla-bla
As a result of his horny condition , none of us cum! None! You see for me orgasm comes gradually, its like an escalator , going upwards.. every time he pulled out i have to restart the process. Then its no longer fun when u have to do it over and over again without reaching culmination. But i also understand that he didnt want to cum before me. We decided that next time, if he is very horny, then he needs to jerk off before 😁 all in all it was fun sex and fun situations. Sex has to be fun, just dont make it too fun! 😉
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