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Revelation moments ..its when i shake off some people .. cutting off all bands... but before that happens i gather all small signs of truth. An innocent event may lead to breakups but it is not the event itself that caused it ! its small and big happenings long before the event.. so i cut off all connections with girls i was partying with .. because i felt fed up with series of double games and sharades. I dont like that shit! I dont know how yo handle it 🤷‍♀️

 

Thats why I had to party solo, as I used to.., it feels good.. after long time partying with "friends". All i actually need is me and a dance floor.

 

As soon as i enter the premises first i am greeted by guards that already knows "the party girl", we exchange couple of jokes and then i am cleared and ready to go in. i would take a place closest to the middle of the dance floor, as close as possible. Then i Would order a glass of wine 🥂 , girls selling drinks would Always prepare my drink in advance and we will greet each other by smiling.. i like those girls. Always welcoming.. wine would help me to switch off brains control and analyse center 😁 it will take about 15 to 30 minutes 🕰️⌛⏳ I hate white wine, it is sour, almost makes me puke but it works!! Cocktails 🍹work as well but i need to have like 2-3 glasses, its bloody expensive here, 20 euro per glass. then swedes use too much orange juice in cocktails which i dont like. spanishspeaking countries make it better of some unknown reason. After that white wine drink its time to party 😜... the dance floor is still empty and i can be the only dancer .. which i kind of like to be ❤️😁

 

"You are a rude girl"

Who said that? This was not a normal opening phrase ! I havent done anything..yet 😁 goodlooking young cocky guy looking at me and continues to talk 😁 "rude girl!"

"What have i done? I see u for the first time man" (and probably last 🤣)

"I watch u dancing every week and u look sexy, all ur moves but u r rude. Can i buy a drink for u?"

"Nope. I want to dance and u kind of interrupting me"

"U r a rude girl thats what i am saying. Why cant I buy a drink for u?"

"Because i have my own money and can do it myself" (cant he just butt off and let me be!!!)

"Do u know who i am? I organise these parties. Music, dj, drinks..all that is me.. no girl says no to me"

"Maybe no single girl..which i am not" (no guy likes to flirt with busy girls 😏)

"U r rude again. It doesnt matter if single or not, i just want.." bla bla bla

 

No, he couldnt finish his speech cause i pushed him in the middle of a dance floor, then turn my back and danced with a hot young guy in a red t-shirt 😁 cause if he continued to interrupt me something bad would have happened 😁. I hate guys trying to talk while dancing.. just shut the fuck up and show me ur moves 😁

 

Evening was too young and "rude girl" guy was still trying to get my attention.

"I wanna get to know u. Please let me get u a drink. Do u have friends here? I can invite them for drink as well. Whatever u need just ask me" (is there any girls that fall into this drink-crap?)

"The reply is "no", i am getting pretty tired of u, find someone else to buy drink for"

"U r a rude girl. Watch me now" 

 

I saw him walking to a dj and  talking,  showing him something and suddenly he turns, looks at me and smiles ..and i couldnt understand untill i heard the song 🤣🤣 it was Rihannas "Rude boy" 🤣🤣 i Love that song and i was thankfull for right music choice even though the song was meant to point out how "rude" i am 😁Oh boy ! I wish i were a boy 🤣 

 

I take a break, shity songs are played by dj..why cant dj always have good hot songs?? Maybe because he wants to give us a break for drink and toilet  ? 😂 I stand by the huge colomn and dansing against it.. "the rude girl"-guy leading towards me. All i think is like "not again! Bloody hell! Whats now??" He has two drinks looking like cuba libre and trying to give me one, i say no, explaining that he might just put some shit in it. Give to someone else! He gets emotional - what do u think about me? Actually i think like that not just about u, but all guys offering free drinks. This is classical.. u put some shit in her drink and thats how story ends with rape or death. He takes my drink and drinks a bit and then hands it to me. Do u now believe me??? Its just a drink 🥂 take it, rude girl 😁

 

I decided to take his glass. Believe it or not but this is first time in the history of partying that i accept a drink from a stranger. I thought he was honest in his voice, then he took some of my drink to convince me and the third reason is cause I knew he didnt pay for it , he is the organiser, it cost him nothing! Logical analyse of the events 😁 and i am drinking cuba libre 😅

 

The thing with free drinks is that u r expected to be friendly with a guy who buys u. And that i can not guarantee 😂 he was prepared to have me as his bitch for a party but i had no intentions to play that role. I am no ones bitch.. he could be mine, but i dont want or like male bitches. I turned my back to him .. that was rude but a necessary message...and look who is here? Same hot guy in red t-shirt 😁 we dance.. if he could just shut up and dance .. whats wrong with guys today? 🤷🏻‍♀️ he eventually carried me in the Middle of the crowd and it looked like we were fucking while dancing 😂 guys are so onecell in their brain!! It gave me nothing..but he was like in heaven.. "you give me erection" he says. What kind of comment is this? What i suppose to do with this information? 🤣 I replied the truth "i dont give a shit"..and THAT was rude 😁😁

 

I also met my regular dance partners that evening.. i have several.. they know we will never fuck and respect that, they just want to dance and feel a woman body.. i bet they fuck better afterwards 😁 Sam wasnt there, maybe he sells shit on other parties.. i have a feeling he is a dealer, the way he dressed, his bag and ppl rotating around him. But i might be wrong. He doesnt have a car and laidback, very good dancer but not breaking or welltrained. Good vibes for dance. Never impolite, respects my rules.. i dont need to mark my boundaries when with Sam. But today he is not there but plenty of other guys who knows me but i dont know them 😂 

 

A red shirt guy started to pull dirty tricks putting his hand under my skirt, between legs and tried to finger me. This he will have to pay for. So i drag him to the wide white column, pushed him towards it and i saw in his eyes sweet expectations cause he put his hand softly on my waste 🤣 u r so wrong! I grabbed his neck and started to squeeze it between my fingers.. and it didn't look nice, i was fucking furious. When he understood i was angry , i let my hands off, leaving a red mark, then gave him a slap on his face, "know ur place slap" 😤 this guy is no longer welcome to dance with me.. 

 

Evening was getting better.. suddenly a bunch of white ppl enter the party 😁 it made me smile : suddenly a black party had a bit too many white ppl 😁 😂 the problemis that they dance differently...white city parties are normally boring when it comes to dancing cause they cant. Suburbs are not fancy but they dance very good. If city party halls could allow suburbs to come to show them how to party, that would be an interesting event!! 

 

Watching girls and guys doing disco moves on hip-hop song made me smile 😁 its sweet in its mismatch 😁 try to dance ABBA-style while 50cent played 😁 anyway, it was hilarious and people were nice to each other. I got tired and were seating when "rude girl" guy came up to me to ask if i need another drink or anything. I thanked him with no 😁 later a girl came up to me with a glass of plain cold water.. i was surprised ..so kind of her.. suburb parties are different, kinder.. i was speechless.. since it was a girl i didnt question if she put some shit into the drink. I trust more girls in this matter and yes, often girls help when they see unaccompanied girl. I find it wonderful ! If a girl is alone at the party, dont be shy to ask for help other girls, just say u r alone and u will soon have a sisterhood around u. Its amazing!

 

 Back to the party. Reggaeton.. time to twerking.. the bigger the butt the better is twerk. Here big butt is not a disadvantage but a great asset. I have a twerk partner, we normally twerk butt-to-butt 😂 there was a very drunk girl who wanted to twerk but she constantly did it towards someone who didnt want to twerk back. I was smiling and tried to help her but she was way to drunk 😁 

 

Cuba libre started to Influence my moves..God I hate when it is visible. I could dance but to go to toilet was more challenging. Guys stopping me here and there. I didnt know i had a fan club. And suddenly a woman pulled me towards her. "Where are u from?" ... I remember her, we danced before.. round woman with happy face.. i like happy faces.. "Middle east" .. " really? Maybe thats why u dance so well and not shy to show it!" I felt confused. What is she talking about? If u r born and grew up in Middle east u r not a good dancer, u r watched all the time by relatives, u cant fart without being heard 100 km away 🤣🤣 u have to be shy.. u have to pretend u r  prude and pure and all that shit.. the reason i dance is despite the fact i am from middle east.. it took me 40 years to free my mind from the past, from bad confidence.. i didnt reply her anything, just smiled and went away.. i wasnt ready to get into this long discussion of how wrong she was..

 

"Rude girl" boy is back. Do u need anything? Yes I do. Ask dj to play hip-hop, i want to dance. no problem. And voala dj plays "this is why i am hot - remix" .. and dance floor start to jump under hiphopers, all other dancers back, time for us to shine 😁 Good choice dj ❤️❤️❤️ 

 

Time is almost 4 in the morning, time to go home. I was asked if i need a drive. No thank u, i need to walk to get fresh air. I love walking after party. A hand lands on my shoulder, unknown black guy hugs me " i watch u every week. U rock".. thank u muah-muah, have to go. After five seconds i am pulled again, these time two guys " we watch u every week, u dance as a star, can u come to my party?" " What type of music?" ," Like here afro".. "i only like hip-hop, Reggaeton and rnb. If u have it, i am in'' i like clear language.. 

 

Finally i am next to the door, "rude girl" boy is after me.. not now..let me go.. 🤣🤣 "i can drive u if u want", "no i need to walk blablabla"..after three minutes i finally made him believe that its best for me 😁 see u next week! I didnt tell him that he is a third organiser approaching me 😁😁 didnt want to upset him.. i let him flash.. he was the best out of those three btw 😘 was honest, respectful.. 

 

I came home around 5:30 and dropped dead 😂 

End of the story 💋💋💋